I am back. I have decided to write again and it's been a good long time. I made a discovery of my previous blogs and the overwhelming memory floods back in my mind. Mixed feelings; Confusion, sadness, temporary happiness. It bundled all together. Yes, I am back. I'm unsure how am I going to prolong this but I will definitely try. I no longer attempt to write in the little black book anymore because it is the memories that I tend to keep with me for as long as I can. A part of me clings onto the little black book. A part of my memory clings to the memories shared with him. That will be the first and the last attempt to share something personal written in thoughts and feelings to anyone. Now all I am is numbness and an emptiness. A good sense of emptiness that doesn't ache. I have move pass all of the things I have put myself in. And I really did made it through. I am contended. I am fine. I am doing great. I am strong. I miss him. I am happy.